Saturday, December 25, 2010

Because.

Because it's embarrassing to tell you not to go because I will miss you
Because I get more than elated when you tell me that you hate to see me go.
Because one of my favourite things to do in life is to sit with you in the car and talk.
Because I never mean to freak you out.
Because I like hugging you a lot.
Because I come in the 'group' things only because I know you'll be dropping me back.
Because my life's greatest fear is that I might drunk-call you someday.
Because my life's greatest tragedy is that I intimidate you.
Because each time you don't call/text/reply, I go into my bubble of self doubt.
Because I like to look at you when you drive.
Because you said my lips are nice, today.
Because I don't get how I make you feel heavy inside.

Because I hope and wish that you'll text tonight.

Because I am not having coffee/chocolate or any of its forms for a month now.

Because you matter.
A lot.

7 comments:

  1. chokes me. and tells me a lot about you that i never knew before. <3

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  2. Because it is awesome the way you said it.

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  3. Because you think I'm sleeping, but really I'm not. And I'm listening.
    Because I hear your breathing, and your heartbeat laying there, and I know you arent asleep, and you are thinking of us
    Because I know you are smiling when you are thinking of us
    Because you dont do cheesy-romantic like I do.. but you do just fine with a "itne din kaha thi?"
    Because you stand leaning against the door watching me when I put on my kohl
    Because you listen to me when I say its enough cigarettes for the day
    Because you yell at me and I yell at you... and then we pause and go make love
    Because you hold my hand when you are driving
    Because you make me feel safe
    Because you take ridiculous amount of my pictures, and make me look like a diva
    Because you look at those pictures when I am gone
    Because it's pretty dumb that I said I dont want long term, and yet I see myself with you
    Because you say cappuchino, marlboro and barely covered me is your idea of a sunday afternoon
    Because I love sunday afternoons
    Because things are so perfect, Im shit scared I will mess it up
    Because the last time we made love, I almost did mess it up

    Because I almost said I love you.

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  4. @Ananya- Because I like being flattered.

    @She- Because it kills me that I can't stalk you!
    Also, maybe you should say 'I love you' if you mean it enough. Not say it too much, though.

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  5. Nay, I dont mean it- mean it. Its more like in the moment kind of mean it, bcz its so darn perfect right then :)

    Moreover, I love you is kind of a jinx, I have observed my "love" graph goes downhill once I actually say it :P :D

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